18 6 / 2011
I’m so tired.
someone tell me how to reconnect with him again. show me. i feel so disconnected. i hate this. he and i are distant again and i only have myself to blame. sigh. sigh. sigh.
19 5 / 2011
"You will lose if you choose to refuse to put her first. She will and she can find a man that knows her worth"
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19 5 / 2011
My boyfriend and I are on a fast food fast.
Did you get that? We have realized that, all this time we were living at his parents’ house, we had more than enough money to move out and get our own place. BUT the reason why we didn’t move out was because we were too busy stuffing our faces almost once a day on restaurant or fast food.
Ridiculous, we know. We spoiled ourselves too much.
But honestly, I’ve never encountered the so-called comforting and loving and homey Hmong house that so many other hmong people talk about. This place is a prison. I hate it, he hates it. Even my daughter senses that something is off.
So, fast food fast is good for us in two main ways. 1, we save money. 2, we shed poundage.
And I enjoy cooking again, although I have to make sure I do it either 2 hours before his mother arrives or 2 hours after, and not too late cause she’s got a fucking Akita’s sense of smell and can’t stand the smell of food late at night.
SIGH.
But most importantly, we get to finally MOVE OUT. YES….fucking on the couch again is only a few months away!
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19 5 / 2011
It’s about that time
To go grab my snoring dude from the sofa he has been preferring as of late, drag him off and bring his zombified self to bed. Hopefully he won’t be too tired for a late-night shag.
I wish I had done some yoga or gone on my ab lounge or looked at my resume while he slept. Instead, i cleaned and tumblrd. Sigh.
19 5 / 2011
On the bright side,
I bought a cute notebook so I could write all the tasks I need to get done every day. Sometimes I don’t do them all, but it feels good to check off little lists, you know? It reassures me that although i may FEEL like I’m not doing anything substantial, I am actually still moving, still keeping on.
It’s comforting.
19 5 / 2011
I just requested a deferment for my ridiculous loans.
Okay, so maybe I’m not ready for real life, just yet.
16 5 / 2011
I just paid 400 dollars’ worth of school loans.
fuck. this just got ugly.
welcome to the real world, rina.
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